Hey... ❤️ (Wow this ended up being a longer post than I thou..
Added 2021-03-19 11:18:27 +0000 UTCHey... ❤️ (Wow this ended up being a longer post than I thought it would - some explanation into my brain) I’m feeling a bit better today but I am a constant rollercoaster at the moment so who knows how long it will last for. 🤦♀️ I am still taking some much needed rest. I know it sounds stupid but my phone really affects my mood and I have to spend a lot of time on it for tiktok and onlyfans etc. So I try to limit my screen time but I need to be on them. 😂 Just trying to figure out a good balance. Also, tiktok in general just getting me down. It’s frustrating me because i have 3 accounts now. The newest one I made as a secret account because I’ve seen a lot of OF people doing this, and their pages have *blown* up! I think because Tiktok hasn’t flagged them yet.... So anyway, I did that, and I made a new email and everything. Absolutely not related to any of my other stuff, and it’s picked up exactly 0 views in 48 hours. And it’s like 😭. Why is tiktok not working for me anymore? Plus, I keep getting banned on my main account, for “nudity/minor safety”.. but I see sooo many videos of girls in full on thong bikinis with millions of views. I just don’t understand it at all. My second account is going nowhere fast. Can’t even get it to 1000, to go live. So, I’m just starting to see it as a reflection of myself. I’ve tied my value in to my tiktok views. 🤦♀️ I’m like, well I obviously make shit content, and I’m not pretty enough/fit enough/funny enough. What do I have to offer? Nothing. Everyone’s bored of me. I should just quit. ..... So yeah, the time out is needed. Every time I try and make content for you guys, I’m just seeing ALL the bad parts and deleting it. I’ll try and post some fun stuff soon, just need to get my brain sorted.
