I’ve been thinking a lot about who I was before my first rel..
I’ve been thinking a lot about who I was before my first relationship. Looking back, I used to see relationships through a lens of beautiful naivety and innocence. How I saw love and romance was so dreamy compared to the mature view I have of them now. In a way, this version of myself is a healthier version of me as I don’t fall in love with dreams and fairytales anymore. However, sometimes I can’t help but miss the boy that has loved a man in a heartbeat with such selflessness and pure admiration. The boy that would see romance and relationships as a gorgeous romantic dance where the love 2 people share for each-other never ends or fades. I still refuse to settle for anything less than that selfless, romantic, beautiful love I know I deserve so I suppose that hope isn’t lost but I think what is lost and will always stay with that first relationship is the pure element of me that lived in a very sweet yet naive romantic dream. The boy that has loved someone more than he loved himself. There is so much stillness in the man I am today but sometimes I miss the waves of the innocent, sweetly naive, boy I used to be. In the end, what was lost and what is found when we give ourselves so intimately to someone?
2023-01-19 23:52:07 +0000 UTC View Post
